Im 23 now!!

Yesterday so awesome and totally fun!
To get there... bener2 butuh perjuangan dan cerita panjang..dari perubahan personil, salon yg sia2, macet yang menggila, ditilang polisi, nabrak marka jalan, cari parkir yg sulit, cari meja kosong di food court ps yg rame, jalanan yg padat merayap untuk masuk pintu tol slipi... tapi akhirnya setelah 4 jam perjuangan yg berliku2.... kita sampe di bandar jakarta!! Woohooo... mencium udara laut yg seger... eits.. tp begitu masuk.. meja yg dipinggir laut udah penuh smua.. tp karna kita sabar menanti.. akhirnya ada meja yg kosong.. dan kita siiiaaapp untuk makaaaan bessaarr... eehh... lg menikmati pemandangan pinggir laut.. ujan mengguyur yg mengharuskan terpal untuk diturunkan supaya kita ga keujanan.. tp ya berhubung perut udh lapaaar.. ga peduli mau ujan, yg penting haaajjjaaarr...hahaha...

Ternyata makanan yg sebanyak itu hanya habis dalam waktu 15 menit..hahaha.. gila.. orang kelaparan dari selatan! Dan selama makan.. ga ada satu pun yg ngomong..bener2 nikmatin makanan.. tp begitu makanannya abis.. baru kita ngobrol, dan karna kita udah lama ga ngumpul... kita mulai membahas dari skripsinya hendy sampe homo seksual, bahkan sampe ngebahas bung karno, pki, supersemar, dan omongan2 dewasa...hahaha... sungguh konyol!

Sangat disayangkan si jarvis ga bisa nyusul, karna mendadak dia ada materi yg musti dikerjain.. (rese tuh amrozi dkk..dia yg mau di eksekusi, orang lain yg dibikin ribet!), tapi si panji, oghe dan pandu (tmn mereka) akhirnya nyusul juga,, hanya,, krn mereka datengnya telat.. ya.. ga kebagian makanan..hehe..
Setelah ngobrol2, kita sempet foto2 dulu di bekantan.. trus.. kita pindah tempat di jembatan ‘le bridge’.. disitulah kegilaan dimulai.. hahaha.. tanpa kita sadari karna kegilaan kita.. banyak orang pacaran yg menjauh..hahaha... mungkin karna keberisikan kali ya...

Atmosfer dan suasana pinggir laut itu bener2 ngerefresh keadaan hati dan pikiran gw secara personal... i really love beach!! It made me more relax... ngebuang jauh2 aura2 negative dari diri gw.. selama gw di ancol.. gw sama skali ga kepikiran hal2 yg bikin gw kesel ataupun marah.. even sbnrnya ada 1 big question mark in my head... tp itu lenyap..hahaha...

Keberadaan temen2 gw td malem bener2 bikin gw seneng.. dan apa yg gw takutin.. itu ga kejadian.. I was not alone on my bday!! I had fun with my friends... they were there to make me the happiest person on my big day!! I was the queen of the day..hahaha..

Thank God.. you answered me..
Thank you my friends... you were right..that you would not let me alone on my bday.. thanks for your time.. and of course to hendy.. oh you were so kind to me.. haha..lets do it again next time..just pick another destination kay.. where? Ujung Kulon would be nice.. right??

Im 23 now!!
Gie

Birthday Syndrome

1 day before my big day
so exciting for what will happen
will be something special on that day?
What is the best gift I will receive
Who will be the first person to say it to me

There are so many question in my head
I’m so anxious for that day
Oh God, I want a perfect b’day in my life
For god sake, please give me wonderful present

Really curious for that day
I want something special
I want someone special on my bday
I wan to be the happiest person on that day
I want a perfect birthday
Will my ex-boyfriend call me at midnight?
Will he give me a nice present?
Or he too busy with his band and forget my day?
Does he remember my birthday?
That’s the point.. hope he will remember it.

Oh its all just birthday syndrome
Stupid syndrome… silly me to worry about
I have a plan with my bestfriend ..
We are going to some place…
And we’re going to have fun.. going crazy
What have to be worried??
I still have friends beside me on my birthday…
No need boyfriend… no need ex-boyfriend…

I just need couple of pals who loves me..
Who cares about me.. who really want to see me happy..
That’s will be enough for me then!

I’m too exciting for my birthday…
I love my birthday syndrome…
Even it’s a silly syndrome…waiting for my 23rd birthday…
There is no doubt to being old.. I love to being mature..

Welcome 23rd birthday.. here I come…
Have a great birthday for myself.. I’m ready for anything will be happened..

should I??

standing in the middle of crowd
feels empty and numb
voiceless and restless
trying to figure out what is it

that scar still hurts
my heart still bleeding
when I met you in coincidence
the pain is here and not yet leave

should let go
or should I say Hello?
start to pretending I’m Ok?
Better I should let u pass through


Seek my wounded heart
Hope I’ll get better soon
No memories, just put it all in box
Throw away to garbage car

I only have my present time and future…
Its already dawn, waiting for sun to come out
Shinning my wounded hear to be healed
Ready for new life…… without you.

missing u like hell

We are not together again
I know, you know, we both know
I drop you a pack of milk
Or your favorite noodle as alibi
Just want to see you

Have tried to stay away
Still couldnt help my fingers
From my celly to call you or
To send you message and find alibi
Just want to see you

I dont belong to you anymore
And you belong to her now
Please let me to see you
Really miss you like hell

Hug me
Kiss me
And I can go from your life
Still miss you like hell..
Missing you like hell..

Leave me alone..

this is my life.. Im enjoying my life.. with any doubt at all.
But why some people still intimidate my life? what is the business for them?

Sorry to say.. I was fragile..but now.. I am NOT!
I already knew how to make a deal with it... and even Im still crying sometimes.. its my own risk and responsibility.. and its not their business right? they dont have any right for interupting my loneliness..

Sometimes I just need to be alone.. I dont need all the advices.. Even they saw me cried out, it did not mean I need help..no... I just need a shoulder to cry on..and please do not say anything to me. And I will say that is a HELP for me!

I already managed my anger..just leave me alone and I will make it clear for myself and other.

I always enjoy to spend time with my friends, but doesnt mean all my time is for you guys..

Really appreciate for the understanding.. Im in recovery now.. pls dont make it worst..


Gie

waar ben jij??

couldn't help my fingers from my celly.. oh no... just want to press my speed dial.. aarrghh..
dillemmmaaa.... angie NOOOO! ingett.. PRIIDDEEE.. hahaha

begini nih kalo ga ada kerjaan di kantor.. smua system mati.. email ga bisa keluar dan ga bisa terima.. chhaakkkeeeppp! yang ada system baru nyala jam 4 sore.. yg ada LEEMMBBUUURR.. konyol dah!

ke plaza semanggi aja kali ya..skalian cari kotak itu..boleh juga tuh, drpd bengong di kantor ga bisa ngapa2in, ngubek2 you tube juga bisa mati gaya.

ko dr pagi hawa2nya gw kepikiran tuh orang terus ya.. dia baik2 aja kah? apa cm gw aja yg lagi kangen sama dia ya? hehehe.. alibi terus daaahh...

Im out,
Gie

really i do!

huuurrgghh.... perasaan itu dateng lagi ke gw...i cant handle this feeling..
after 1 week.. ga kuat juga gw..


i miss him.. really i do!
i dont care if he doesnt loves me anymore... im ok with it.


Im out,
Gie