apa sih artinya sahabat? klo buat gw pribadi..gw akan lbh menganggap org itu sahabat gw kaloooo.. org itu ada disaat gw susah..bukan disaat gw happy..
days by days... gw skrg lbh tau mana yg sahabat gw, dan mana temen yg cuma buat seneng2 doang.. tp lately.. gw lbh sadar lg..temen yg tadinya cm buat seneng2 doang aja..udh menyebalkan..hahahha..
kejadian tgl 21 kmrn buat gw buka mata..mana yg sahabat mana yg engga.. mana yg bener2 care sm keadaan gw..even telat.. tp mrk msh mau tau keadaan gw.. tp ada lah org yg bener2 cuek tuh.. dan dia ky gitu krn dia lg sibuk dg pacar barunya.. **menurut looo..wktu lo jomblo lo sama sapa nyet?** dan dia bs cuek..krn dia ga tau rasanya jd posisi gw dg keadaan yg ky gni tuh gimana..
bukannya gw mau nyumpahin.. tp klo nanti someday dia ngerasain apa yg gw rasain skrg.. dia baru taaauuu rasanya ky gmana!!
dan bodohnya gw..ini tuh dah kejadian utk yg kedua kalinya..oh no.. tp kli ini gw bener2 dah cape.. give up gw..

yg penting dan bersyukurnya gw.. gw masih punya sahabat yg bener2 care.. dia ada disaat gw susah dan happy.. sahabat ga harus kasih advice yg bagus2.. ga harus peluk gw kenceng2.. atleast..dia punya kuping yg bisa dengerin gw ..thats it!!

i miss rizkie so well!! and thank you for haniya and lail... :)

f*** religion!!

whats wrong with religion huh? i dont believe in religion..but i do believe in one God, well in this case i believe in Jesus. And i dont care what people believe in to.. u can say that i dont have a deal with other people think..as long that people believe in God (whatever).

im saying like this not because i have a boy who has different religion with me..no!
i dont think he believes in his god..hahaha.. i think he's an agnostic..
but i respect on what he believes into..and i hope he will do the same as well.. (for now..yes we do).

Buuuttt... why there are some people very2 KEPO with our difference!! in the other side..both of us dont care bout that..hahha funny isnt?
and the most kepo is my mom..hahahha.. whats wrong mom? as long we're not getting married..just chillin laaa... but if someday we're planning to be married..let us solve the problem.. there are singapore, australia, hongkong..or the nearest is bali.. :D
and dont forget one thing mam.. you and dad also in different.. and you can make a deal with that,right? so please stop buggin me..with your theory which u didnt do so well for yourself!
So irritating to see my mom act like that.. pls dont judge my boy only from your perception.. know him better.. please.. he's so different with my previous..

well i can say fuck religion! they just think that their religion is the best religion..ohhh hell NO! that you called best religion when you say other people is wrong and you are the right???
religion A says they are the best.. then religion B says they are the oldest.. and religion C says hate other religion and dont have relationship with other people who different coz if you do, you will go to hell... OH NOOO.. what kind of religion like that?
the right religion should teach bout love other people even that people different..

thats why..i dont believe in religion.. i live right now not because of my religion..but my God who loves and cares me with His power.
but for formal thing..yeah u can say im a christian..but not in frontal way..


one thing, please dont make this world getting worse just because of there are so many religions... but please live this world with many colors of religions of faiths..
stop judging people based on what their believes in.. it can't guarantee anything..
example.. my mom doesnt like my boy just because he's a moslem..what kind of judging is that??? and she like one of my ex..just because my ex is a christian! hahahaha... what the hell huh?!!

the point is.. i love my boy whatever he believes in...hahaha..

Gie

WE WOOOONNN!!!

AHAAAYY.. WE WON (AGAIN)!! hahaahha..

Shangri-La, JW Marriott, Premier XXI,,, here we cooomeeeee :)

Would like to thank you for every single person who helped us with their love, patience, skill, and money...hahahaha..

Especially for my boy..maaccii ya egaaaaa udh mau bantu kita latian sparing, extra joss en setia dlm hal antar jemput..dan penonton setianya TSG..hihihihi xoxo deh pokonya!!

================== WE WOOOONNNN ================================

We did it girlz...cant wait for the FINALE!!

We WONNN the semi final and just wait for the FINALE on Friday 08th of May 09 at Samba Futsal.. BRING IT ON GIRLZZZ.. HIT NO NAME WITH NO MERCY AT AL!!!!

Go TSG..... GOOO SEEXXYYY!!

Anger is all I have!

huuurrrgghhh >_< sebel gw udah seubun2!!
gw dianggep apa yaaaa?? kaya iiiaaaaattttt... better gw ga tau deh klo gini caranya..
jangan harap ada action apa2 dari pihak gw... no way!!
gw ga bakal maki2.. tp.. jangan harap gw akan berkata2.. SILEENTT!!!

udah bukan Pride is all i have.. tapi.. cuma ada AANGGGEEERRRR!!
dulu gw bisa diinjek2.. kali ini gw ga mau kaya sapi yg ditusuk idungnya.. yg cuma bisa manut aja!! oooggaaahh!! geeraaaammm!

i miss my mommy

Mommy.. pls go home sooonn!!
I just realized something important.. that.. I can't live without my mommy..
huhuhu.. she is a amazing person!! she can take care everything so well!!

Actually she take care of me so damn well!!
I love my mommy..and I realized when she's far away from me.

huhuhu.. mommy... go hooommmee!!

Sweet Companion

Really sweet... he always try to beside me.. whenever, wherever, even I didnt ask him to be here.. but he tried :)
The sweetest thing is.. when TSG played on 1st match last week, 1 hour before the match begun..he said that he had a meeting.. but... when we were ready to playing.. DOOORRR!! he showed up!! so sweeeett ^_^

The way he treats me..different with the other (my exs) hihi..and i love the way he loves me..

Verlijfd op hem :)
Gie

2nd League of Women Futsal Tournament..GO TSG!!

Go THE SEXY GUNNERS!!
We are the champion.. show them all that we are still the winner..hahaha..

this is my blog dude!!

This is my blog..and i have right to write anything i want to write down here..
so why i have to listen what they say about my blog??
If they dont want to read..thats their own business..not mine! If you dont like my blog..so dont read it..just close your window..ahahaha..

And i will not stop writting on my blog..I dont care you like it or not! :D
uumm..maybe.. some people were looking my blog just want to know whats happened in my life lately..mmhh.. its ok..but once again.. if they dont like.. just shut up your mouth..and close my blog window..hahahaha...

This is my blog... my life.. and I write what I want to write.. thats why I called Diary Trash..hahaha.. some posts are unnecessary things.. but.. they happened in my life..

I dont care what people think or say bout my blog or my life... wuueeeee...

Im Out,
Gie

my crush ^_^

Oh gosh..finally..i realized something happens inside of me..
I have a big crush on this guy.. ^^
for me..he's the right man in the right time.. he can makes me laugh, and the important thing is.. he's fixing my broken heart!!

We just realized..why we have to find another person if we care bout each other.. there is something missing if we are not seeing each other..so sweet isnt it??

I need him..and he needs me as well...

Im thinking.. am I fallin in love with him yet? dunno... ^_^
just enjoy every single day with him..

Gie

too complicated

It just happened so fast..but takes time to realized..haha..
I fallin' in love with someone..and he is my friend though..we declared that we have a big crush for each other.

But the problem is.. we must keep it as our lil secret.. the conditions makes us to be like this. And so many things that we have to settle first..so we can pronounce our relationship.

At this moment, I can't say he is my boyfriend..or Im his girlfriend..everything still on progress.. and no comment is the right answer if anyone asking us..hahaha..

But deep down in my heart, I like him, I adore him, love to being with him, I care about him.. all those feelings will grown up to be love rite? but need the process..and it will takes time..

the big question is.. why i have to be in love with my ex boyfriend's best friend..aaarrrgghhh.. why the condition so difficult for both of us.

well..just let it flow and... enjoy it! hahaha...

The first time to celebrate New Years far away from my family..it was great..but..when we were counting the time, I was so sad.. I miss my mommy specially.
But it was fun though..coz its the first time we were spending time together... The TM sista.. (me, Haniya and TM).

Hukum A-B-C

Kenapa harus ada Hukum A-B-C dlm dunia percintaan...dengan rincian rumus like this :

A -> B -> C -> ?

A suka sama si B, tapi si B sukanya sama si C, sayangnya si C ga pernah realize klo si B suka sama si C, dan C ga bisa ketebak suka sama siapa...
few months ago..gw ada dalam posisi si A, dan sekarang.. gw ada di posisi B.. duh itu ga enak banget, karena ga enak sama si A dong... tp namanya perasaan kan ga bisa dipaksa klo kita sukanya sama si C...so pathetic.. but its true..

entahlah...


Gie

All I Want for a Christmas....is you!

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click'
Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me
I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas isYou
All I want for Christmas is you baby

miserable weekend!

what can i say about my weekend...nothing except miserable! completely beyond my control!
first.. I got a big fight and I dont get any permit for driving my car..
second.. my mam fell down from the stairs
third.. my dinner was cancelled due of the second part
forth.. someone who promised me to give RM100, did not show up with no messages..

well yeah..the biggest reason to make me like this is the 4th reason..beside the RM100, i really need to talk to him now.. to telling about the 1st.. I dont know with whom i have to share about it except him.. actually I know where is he know.. and I can accept it..but why doesnt him try to contact me or inform me to cancel about today's plan..
his mom asked me where he is.. and silly me.. i said "uuhmm, maybe he is at tangerang mam".. oh i should not tell her.. i really did not mean anything to mentioned tangerang words! damn!
her mom so worried about him.. because i told her that her son will be back from KL saturday night with last flight..uurrgghh.. I should not say that to her!! Im with my stupid!!

I dont know when will we can meet each other.. tomorrow he will be leaving jakarta and going to jogja..and on 26 im going to KL and will be back to jakarta on 4th january..

why all my plans for this weekend has been ruined!! I really dont enjoy my weekend.. and tomorrow i will back to my job..aarrgghhh...

oh i still got something.. tonight i will have a dinner with someone.. i hope for this plan will going well as planned.. **crossing fingers**

Ps : to John, pls give me some news..


Im out,
Gie

Group Quotation to Rome

Fiiuuhh..
Almost 3 weeks my life seems like walking dead zombie just because taking care of this group (Dato Sri Leong familiy trip).
Under pressure..stressfull.. hectic..uurrghh!
But finally 3 hours ago, I have sent all the voucher for land arrangement.. after so many changes for the itinerary and the other stuffs.. and now..really hope everything is gonna be alright and going as planned.

Actually, the itinerary so simple.. but.. i dont know..why the agent and sales make it complicated.
And the tour is only take 4 days, but it like 10 days for holyland! huuh.. its only for Rome plus Tivoli trip..uurrghh!

19 December, the tour will be started..oh God..need your help one more time to make all the trip going well...

Can't hardly wait for my holidaaayyy... really need fresh air!

where is my edward?

Finally I watched that movie!!
I love edward... I love that story...
huhuhu... where is my edward... actually I knew where is my edward... he's at his home right now.. and he just called me 1 hour ago..

today Im so happy.... ^^
ohya.. he asked me do i miss him...and I was with my straight answer.. "Yeah I miss u"...hihihi..
once I meet him... I will give him a big hug (with or without..I will do it!!) hahaha...

I miss my edward..............................................

I miss someone out there...I just met him 2 days ago, but now.. really want to hug him for a long time.. please allow me to hug him not for a while..hahha..Im so selfish!! Actually I dont care if he like or he does not.. I just want to hug him.


I miss him.


Gie

I Want Pancake!!

After watching I am Sam, suddenly I really want pancake with blueberry cheese on top side with one scoop vanila ice cream.. sounds delicious isnt it?

The first thing come up is.. lunch at pancious would be a great idea..
Almost 6 months I haven’t go there to catch some pancakes or waffles.. and the other thing is.. I want to go there with someone who really love pancakes.. and that person is somenone that I’ve missed...
Its so hard to make a step to through in pancious seat and order one portion of pancake.. because it will remind me of him..

Still remember our date at pancious.. I still remember what he was weared and I was weared of. I still remember how was so hard to get taxi to go home that night.. that day was rainy night..

Yeah.. thats all just a part of our sweet memories.. that Im sure he still remember all of those ;)

Well, I have a plan to ask him for lunch tomorrow.. just want to grab some pancakes and we’ll go after that.. I mean.. we can split after that.. I will go on my way to home, and he will go on his way by himself.. certainly.. just need a companion for eat pancakes.. and I think.. he is a pancake lovers.. he knows the good way to eat pancakes..haha.. I havent meet another guy really love pancakes like he does..

He doesn’t need to talk with me once we’re eating.. all i need just a little companion for lunch..
Oh.. really want pancakes right now..
Actually one of my friends just asked me to get dinner in pancious this night.. but Im not quit sure that he really loves pancakes or not.. and Im not quite sure that he knows how to finish one portion of pancakes so well.. I think he just want to go there because I want to go there.. not because he likes pancakes as like I am.

Okay.. I will ask that person to out for lunch tomorrow..

I want pancake so badly!

Im 23 now!!

Yesterday so awesome and totally fun!
To get there... bener2 butuh perjuangan dan cerita panjang..dari perubahan personil, salon yg sia2, macet yang menggila, ditilang polisi, nabrak marka jalan, cari parkir yg sulit, cari meja kosong di food court ps yg rame, jalanan yg padat merayap untuk masuk pintu tol slipi... tapi akhirnya setelah 4 jam perjuangan yg berliku2.... kita sampe di bandar jakarta!! Woohooo... mencium udara laut yg seger... eits.. tp begitu masuk.. meja yg dipinggir laut udah penuh smua.. tp karna kita sabar menanti.. akhirnya ada meja yg kosong.. dan kita siiiaaapp untuk makaaaan bessaarr... eehh... lg menikmati pemandangan pinggir laut.. ujan mengguyur yg mengharuskan terpal untuk diturunkan supaya kita ga keujanan.. tp ya berhubung perut udh lapaaar.. ga peduli mau ujan, yg penting haaajjjaaarr...hahaha...

Ternyata makanan yg sebanyak itu hanya habis dalam waktu 15 menit..hahaha.. gila.. orang kelaparan dari selatan! Dan selama makan.. ga ada satu pun yg ngomong..bener2 nikmatin makanan.. tp begitu makanannya abis.. baru kita ngobrol, dan karna kita udah lama ga ngumpul... kita mulai membahas dari skripsinya hendy sampe homo seksual, bahkan sampe ngebahas bung karno, pki, supersemar, dan omongan2 dewasa...hahaha... sungguh konyol!

Sangat disayangkan si jarvis ga bisa nyusul, karna mendadak dia ada materi yg musti dikerjain.. (rese tuh amrozi dkk..dia yg mau di eksekusi, orang lain yg dibikin ribet!), tapi si panji, oghe dan pandu (tmn mereka) akhirnya nyusul juga,, hanya,, krn mereka datengnya telat.. ya.. ga kebagian makanan..hehe..
Setelah ngobrol2, kita sempet foto2 dulu di bekantan.. trus.. kita pindah tempat di jembatan ‘le bridge’.. disitulah kegilaan dimulai.. hahaha.. tanpa kita sadari karna kegilaan kita.. banyak orang pacaran yg menjauh..hahaha... mungkin karna keberisikan kali ya...

Atmosfer dan suasana pinggir laut itu bener2 ngerefresh keadaan hati dan pikiran gw secara personal... i really love beach!! It made me more relax... ngebuang jauh2 aura2 negative dari diri gw.. selama gw di ancol.. gw sama skali ga kepikiran hal2 yg bikin gw kesel ataupun marah.. even sbnrnya ada 1 big question mark in my head... tp itu lenyap..hahaha...

Keberadaan temen2 gw td malem bener2 bikin gw seneng.. dan apa yg gw takutin.. itu ga kejadian.. I was not alone on my bday!! I had fun with my friends... they were there to make me the happiest person on my big day!! I was the queen of the day..hahaha..

Thank God.. you answered me..
Thank you my friends... you were right..that you would not let me alone on my bday.. thanks for your time.. and of course to hendy.. oh you were so kind to me.. haha..lets do it again next time..just pick another destination kay.. where? Ujung Kulon would be nice.. right??

Im 23 now!!
Gie